MY STORY

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I Yearned for Connection and Self-Worth

Real Talk. I didn’t know where or how to begin. I was caught in a vicious cycle of abusing myself through a binge eating disorder. Both the physical and mental effects controlled my life. I didn’t know how to go back out into the world after I’d been hiding for so long and at times I didn’t know if it was even possible. 


Picture this. 315lb. me in a sky blue fleece bathrobe planted at my computer late at night shoving food into my mouth faster than I could chew it. I’d scroll social media seeing people I once called friends living what appeared to be the best life ever and I was missing out. When I finished eating, I’d go back for more. 


Every minute my brain would focus on what I was going to eat next rather than seeing what was going on in my life. If it were not that, I’d be planning for the “New ME”, the better one that would appear after I made my fresh start “tomorrow”, a day that never came. I was always turning down invitations and then beating myself up over the fear of missing out. 


I wanted a life of action and adventure. I wanted to stop hiding and numbing myself through bingeing and shopping. I wanted all the damage I’d done to my body to reverse itself. I wanted to look and feel as good as I knew was possible.


And yet despite it all, I knew that change was possible. I knew there were better things waiting for me. I knew there was both physical and emotional health on my journey. I had to make a choice. Give in to the safety of the known, a paralyzing comfort that smothers, or risk. Risk of being seen, heard, and known. 


These days I choose to be seen. Fulfillment and purpose and looking at the world in a new and better way is possible. I knew I had all the tools I needed within my heart. I was right.

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Your pain and shame can be transformed into love, light, and healing for yourself and others.

You can do this. You can get unstuck. I tried starving myself, juice fasts, shakes, exercise programs, anything other than finding out the Why. I didn’t focus on WHY I did and didn’t do things. I wanted the change to come automatically and rescue me from my dark. I felt like my world was crashing down around me. I wanted to sink into myself and disappear like a black hole. I was afraid, too afraid to change. I was full of shame and felt worthless.

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The Self-Imposed Shackles Came Off

I woke up and broke free from my prison.  I started living life and was greeted with so many wonderful things that were there waiting for me all along. I have the tools to recognize thoughts and behaviors that sabotage my success and deal with them in a healthy way.

I set goals with excitement and conquer them as I aim for even more. You can have the same. I promise. A mindset shift can lead to abundance. Isn't it time your needs are met? Let me show you the way.